The Rebel Within

The Rebel is an idea.

The Rebel is what’s emerging beneath the surface. It’s a being, a character you create to replace the old you, the one mired by layers of conditioning and untruth by the world and its media and technology and its ignorant people.

You slowly rebel against the world until you begin to uncover the REAL YOU beneath it all.

It’s the heart of what I made this site about.


Beneath it all…beneath all beliefs and systems of thinking that you subscribe to.

You read things on the net and they make sense. They seem to be true. But do not actually know and they provide comfort where you have none.

When you follow a system to think for you, then you have rules and righteous purpose. You have concepts and ideals, such as “saving the world” or changing it to your own vision of utopia, or being too honest, when honesty is not always a virtue. You become consumed with ego or “respect.”


These things are all only illusions, designed to distract you from trusting your own intuition and true self.


Beneath all the awkward, casual social interactions. Beneath the light, airy, surface world that everyone pretends is real.

Beneath it is the underworld.

It is a red river, a current of distaste.

You are not satisfied with the status quo. You are uncomfortable with your place in it. You want to push the limits.


But to be an effective rebel, you must have a REASON. It can’t just be for guts and glory.

Those things will never build your soul.

You’ve got to have a selfish reason to push yourself through the barriers of the System. Your goals, the things you really desire, those are enough at first. You take ahold of them and then you FIGHT.


But fighting wears you down after a while, and you run the risk of turning into the enemy.

Deep down, despite all you’ve been told, despite the hard knocks you’ve taken, you are something special.

There’s a power in the background, awaiting your total surrender. It calls to you. It tugs at you like a nightmare every damn day and every time you fail to do what you want to do. What you set out to do.

This thing is NOT the thing that you fight.

This thing is the Rebel.

The Rebel is your emerging soul.


Beneath it all, beneath this human shell, you have a heart of rebellion.

You rebel in order to find your soul, the origin of yourself. And then you hold onto that power and don’t let anybody take it from you. And you don’t let imposters like your old self take it either.

You are a rebel to the core.

My first kratom experiences


Bad alligator

One night, just for fun, my pet alligator decided to slip my girlfriend’s medication into my orange juice.

It was very bad, he should be ashamed. It was entirely unintentional on my part. But the Trazodone, a sleeping/depression pill, made its way into my system. This isn’t the first time he’s been a bad alligator, but I figured maybe I would sleep well and be refreshed the next morning.

I slept for 14 hours straight.

I awoke feeling extremely weak, as if all the energy was drained from my body. It was so hard to get up, but I couldn’t sleep anymore. So I thought about a solution.

Phenibut takes 5-7 hours to kick in, and it was already 3pm. That wasn’t an option. But then I realized…I still had a bunch of kratom left.

What’s kratom?


Clearly not for human consumption.

Kratom is a plant. It’s a happy plant that has psychoactive effects, just like caffeine or marijuana or alcohol. Its in the same “league” as phenibut in that its used as a performance/recreational drug (nootropic) and isn’t dangerous. Unless you overdose, you fucking idiot.

Although it’s sold as incense, when you just happen to take it orally it makes you motivated and happy…

But you have to take it just right.

My first time (consuming kratom)

The first time I burned kratom (Maeng Da) as an incense, I put 5 grams (max dose) into an 8oz cup of water and drank it straight.

I felt a little sick to my stomach and a little uptight. I was upset because I’d slept too long (once again) and my girlfriend was annoying me. After an hour I felt very slight effects like phenibut. I got pretty angry with her and shut her up.

Several hours later and I felt about the same. It didn’t look like it was working. I knew there are a lot of bunk vendors out there, similar to marijuana, but I trusted this vendor. I had even taken the maximum dose. I just decided that it was me. But I wasn’t convinced.

Second time’s the charm

A week later I tried again.

My girl and I were heading to a restaurant, and I wanted a pick-me-up.

last time we’d gone to a restaurant, my alligator had secretly slipped me Adderall and I took it by accident. Stupid crocodile. But it was an incredible experience. So I wanted to have even more fun.

I took the max dose of kratom again.

About ten minutes later I felt very nauseous. It wasn’t intestinal. I felt entirely like throwing the fuck up. This lasted about 20-30 minutes. Once again I was extremely uptight and the kratom was only making me angry. I vowed never to try it again.

But there was still something I hadn’t tried yet.

Full circle – the kratom tea

After 14 hours of sleep and feeling like sin, I realized there may be a way out. I suddenly recalled the idea of kratom tea.

I knew it could be boiled instead of taken raw, but I wanted to be a badass. I’d taken kratom raw twice and it tasted disgusting, but obviously it didn’t work.

But I know the truth now:

In order to extract the most out of kratom, its got to be boiled.

Otherwise your stomach can’t digest it. That’s why it had minimal effects for me the first few times i tried it.

Imagine cramming a pile of leaves down your throat. You’d get really sick and have terrible shits. It’s hard enough to even chew plants, let alone digest them. Your body needs them to be processed in some way to make it remotely digestible.

After 5 minutes of research I excitedly decided to save my day with kratom tea.

The process of making kratom tea

I even decided to document the process (snap some fucking photos).

Ironically, the process of making the tea and documenting it got me excited enough that it woke me up far before I even tasted it. But you’ll find out later how the kratom affected me.

Kratom tea just tastes like strong tea. It doesn’t taste horrible like downing the raw powder does. I don’t recommend anybody do that. It just won’t be as effective. Would you just eat a bag of tea?



You don’t eat a bag of tea. You boil it first.

I added 5g of Maeng Da kratom to a boiling pot and cooked it for about 20 minutes.


20 minutes later it looks like this.

I let it drain into a coffee cup to catch the leftover matter.


Letting it drain

When I was done I had something like this:


I ran it through again and made a second cup. Since I’m a trooper, I downed the whole first cups of tea in one go with a biscuit, just like they do in Britain. Except their tea isn’t psychoactive. I was definitely on an empty stomach because I had slept for 14 hours, so the full effects should have kicked in.

It may have been just calories, but in the first 8 minutes I felt a slight “woozy” effect. I assumed it was my stomach “activating.” I felt a sort of slight buzz. After another ten minutes my second batch was ready. Keep in mind that I had only had about half a dose at this point. I downed the entire second cup, and this time the taste feel deeper and richer, but not nearly as potent.

The curds leftover were dark and did not look appealing this time, but there was so much plant matter left it bothered me. So I dumped the remains in my mug with some hot water and took that too. Just in case.


So appealing.

About ten minutes later my mug looked liked this:



So I downed the rest of it and after about 20 more minutes–so 90 minutes total–I noticed a giddiness. I felt very minor nausea and some inhibition, similar to phenibut after only 3 hours.

It was by this time I thought the kratom wasn’t working. I chalked it up to my physiology and decided there was nothing more i could do. It had been 2 hours and the effects still weren’t that potent. Perhaps this strain didn’t work.

I was wrong.

Get up and do something

Just like phenibut, you can’t always tell it’s working if you’re just lounging around.

I got up and walked around and I felt this invigorating buzz. It was hard to notice before. Since I have little anxiety it was tough to tell but I also felt anti-anxiety effects in this. I found myself not really worrying and feeling the need to smile.

In fact most of my depression/tiredness from sleeping too long had gone away.

I generally had more energy. It wasn’t really anything to write home about.

But then I took it to the gym.

Kratom in the gym and a golden workout

A golden surge of energy ran through me. It was like pure joy flooded through me. I happily worked out and I just wanted to keep going, even though my body was done. I also experienced little to no pain. I was clear, focused, and had no anxiety. More than that, I had this simmering well-being, a sort of excitement and pride that couldn’t be covered up. It was like I had discovered this great thing that only I knew about.

I lifted weights without caring about what anybody thought and I felt like I could get away with whatever I wanted. Phenibut can do this too, but it was less about not caring and more about being too happy to care.

I’ve had insane workouts on phenibut, and there is a clear difference between it and kratom. Kratom fills me with this almost spiritual eagerness. Phenibut makes me super calm and relaxed to the point where it’s very easy to focus purely on the workout.

Comparing kratom and phenibut

Which one should you choose?

I would compare kratom to about 750mg of phenibut, which is slightly above a moderate dose. But phenibut does NOT make you happy or joyous like kratom does. So the comparison is imperfect.

In an ideal world you’d take these together.

Kratom is way cheaper than phenibut as far as proportional amounts for the same price.

Kratom works as a painkiller, while phenibut doesn’t. People compare the plant to opiates but it’s not as addictive and it’s safe. Arguably kratom is safer than phenibut, but that’s only because it works differently in the brain.

And I can’t state it plainly enough:


If you overdose, you’ll develop dependency. That’s why you don’t take drugs every day, folks.

That’s why the corporations have all sorts of kids hooked on heavy-duty shit like Adderall that they take every day and literally have a huge headache and suicidal withdrawal if they miss a day.

That’s how the pharmaceutical industry in America has gotten so rich, and it doesn’t help that America has the highest rate of mental disease in the world.

Don’t be afraid of playing with sparklers, kiddies.


Kratom and phenibut — mostly harmless

Be afraid of playing with fire.

What works better for anxiety?

Phenibut hands down.

Kratom takes away anxiety but it does so more through mood. It doesn’t have the powerful uninhibiting effect like phenibut does. Kratom makes you feel calm and motivated. Phenibut puts you into godmode. A better comparison would be vodka.

Dosing differences

Also keep in mind that kratom kicks in fairly quickly and peaked for me at 2 hours. And that was just one experience. Phenibut takes longer.

Phenibut also should only be taken up to 1g every other day. Kratom can be used multiple times in one day, but you can develop dependency on it if you take it too much.

It’s also worth noting that both kratom and phenibut work really well for some and not well for others.

I gave one of my girlfriends 1g one day, and she felt no effect. I gave her 2g about a month later, and still nothing.

Meanwhile I can take a small dose and feel amazing effects.

I’d say your preference depends on you. Choose between feeling on top of the world and excited, or between focused and uninhibited. They’re two entirely different drugs, although they do both essentially get rid of anxiety and depression.

How to take it

Kratom can be taken multiple times (usually twice) a day at 5g every few hours.

If you have a lot of money to spend on this sort of thing, I’d try kratom. People who use this stuff as a lifestyle generally recommend using only one particular type (called a strain) of kratom a day, meaning they stock up on 5-7 different strains and use a different one each day.

This is just like phenibut cycling and the purpose is to avoid dependency, which makes the effects go away.

If you don’t want to get into the whole “kratom lifestyle,” then I’d say take one strain of kratom every 3-5 days.

Just boil 5-8g in boiling water for about 20-30 minutes and you’ll get what looks like this:


Clean and smooth with no bubbles on the surface.

You can run it through multiple times or take the leftover powder raw, but the point is that the only way to unlock kratom’s potential is to take it as a tea. Otherwise your stomach may have trouble digesting it (mine certainly did, and kratom was useless for me until I used the tea).

The final word on kratom:

It’s definitely great for motivation, feeling great, and killing depression.

The specific brand I tried in the above experiments is Hyper Hippo, our vendor’s brand of Maeng Da, one of the most powerful kratom types available.

If being super-happy and eager to work all day is your thing, then try out Maeng Da. Your results might be even better than mine, since I don’t seem to respond to kratom as well as some.

You can check out Hyper Hippo right here.


Mmm, delicious biscuits. Not for sale.

Also: I don’t recommend trazodone.

DISCLAIMER: I do not give out medical advice. All information on this page is intended for informational or entertainment purposes only and is merely the opinions of the author. Seek out a medical professional for medical advice. Always consult your doctor before taking any substance. Always abide by the laws of your state regarding any substances discussed in this article. END OF DISCLAIMER.
P.S.: the FDA can kiss my ass.

Comprehensive overview of all things phenibut

Everything I know about phenibut all in one page.


All the info on my site, Phenibut God, boiled down–with a few more stories and some pointers. I’ll tell you exactly what it does, how it does it, what I use it for, and how I beat my anxiety with it.

You can find detailed information all over that site but this post will really introduce you to all the uses of phenibut…and why it could be such an important drug for many people.

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What is phenibut?

It’s a smart drug that has a ton of uses. It’s legal and over-the-counter. It doesn’t need a prescription.

Just because it’s easy to get doesn’t mean it’s weak. This stuff is powerful and can remove all social inhibitions. It’s not like alcohol in that it intoxicates you and shuts off your brain. Quite the opposite.

Phenibut makes you more alert and more present in the now. It enhances all of your senses. Donuts taste amazing. Music not only sounds incredible but addictive.

All your anxiety, worries, and fears go away. Almost completely. It’s a “performance drug”–literally. You can use this for performances and you will never act or sound better because there will be nothing preventing you from giving your best.

Another interesting effect of phenibut is that it makes people like you. This is because you are super comfortable and relaxed, and people pick up on that easily.

What are all the different ways I can use it?

I already mentioned music and performances. The first time I played guitar on phenibut I was obsessed. Everything sounded so good I got chills. I just wanted to keep playing, and when I sang it was much better than average. There was nothing holding me back, no stress on my vocal chords.

Phenibut is like steroids for musicians or actors. For auditions or job interviews this stuff is killer.

Picking up women

I had the one of the best chats of my life with a chick while on phenibut. She was probably the hottest girl I’ve ever met, and I don’t say that because I was high. I opened her at the gym with insane confidence and we flirted for ten minutes straight, touching each and pushing each other around. She kept telling me she had to go back to her friend, but she didn’t want to leave. I had zero problem with taking her hand or putting my arm around her.

When she left she yelled, “I’ll text you!” and when I walked by later she pointed me out excitedly to her blond friend like an eager child. It was hilarious.

Later she actually texted me first (this is rare for women) and wanted to come over.

I’m not bragging. This is just one example of picking up a girl on phenibut.

If you have any fears of what to say, or whether to a touch a girl, or whether to approach, phenibut will take all that away. It’s like being hammered except without any of the bad stuff.

Parties and other social events

You can be the life of the party. Talking to random people is easy on phenibut. There is no “pressure” or stress. Consequences don’t seem to exist. This is good because people open up to you and you are able to be yourself. Again, like alcohol but no side effects. You won’t even need to drink anything.

I recommend this for public speaking or a theatric performance.

The gym

I’ve had killer workouts in the gym just by being on phenibut.

You don’t even think about the people around you. You feel calm and it feels “normal” and “natural” to just be working hard. It’s easy to make noise and lift heavy weights without holding back.

Because of this lack of inhibition you’ll find it much easier to go hard. It’s not much of a painkiller, but it’s easier to ignore the pain while on phenibut. Mix it with caffeine and you have an insane workout supplement.

I just went to the gym on phenibut as I write this sentence and it only re-affirms how useful this stuff is. Just when most people would be done, you’re able to keep going and keep pumping out. It really allows you to give all you have instead of holding back. That’s important because sometimes in the gym, when there are people around, we subconsciously hold back whether we like it or not. We’re afraid of going too hard or making too much noise. Obviously I don’t always have this problem but phenibut just makes hard workouts easy.

Amazing sex

Phenibut is never more a performance drug than in the bedroom. You can keep it up for a long time and you have zero inhibition. The sex feels great and you will be more into it. I could go into detail, but there’s really no need. If you’re sexually experienced, you know what anxiety and inhibition can do to harm your performance. If you’re not as experienced, then you are probably witnessing the effects of anxiety on your life.

There is actually a lot to be said for phenibut as an ED drug. It doesn’t enhanced blood flow, but it kills anxiety. Most erectile dysfunction is actually caused by anxiety, NOT an actual physiological problem.

This is good because phenibut will allow a lot of guys to get it up when they couldn’t before.

Eposure therapy to kill anxiety and depression

I’ve already talked about a bunch of general uses where phenibut combats anxiety in specific situations.

But what most people just don’t understand is that anxiety is a general condition or state that can be removed. You can get rid of that entirely through practice, just like you practice at any other skill. It’s like riding a bike. While some people drink at a party to “loosen up” and be able to talk to people they don’t know, there are plenty of people who don’t need alchohol to do that. They have no anxiety. They’re free socially.

Phenibut God - You can get over anxiety if you can ride a bike

If you know how to use this, then you can beat anxiety

Phenibut is a great tool to help you destroy anxiety by doing what’s called “exposure therapy.” That’s just a fancy way of saying:

Expose yourself daily to high anxiety-producing situations until the anxiety is gone.

This isn’t hard. You can just start by saying “Hi” to every single person around you. This will be difficult at first, but over time you’ll realize nothing bad happens and some anxiety will go away.

Over time you can work your way up to having conversations. Then you can work your way up to approaching women you like. Then you can work your way up to shouting things in public, hitting on girls without remorse, and speaking your mind to just about anybody.

It doesn’t happen all at once but you should never be ashamed to get started.

Phenibut is great because it kills your anxiety, which allows you to do all the things I mentioned above. If you just do them on a daily basis, then when you’re OFF the phenibut the anxiety will still be gone.

That’s how you beat depression or anxiety. Depression is really just fear of the outside world. If your depression isn’t caused by anxiety then your depression will cause anxiety. Fix one and the other will tend to follow.

By getting over your fears, you can stop avoiding people and situations that bother you. Finally.

How do I take phenibut?

You buy the white powder from a vendor and it arrives in some small container. If you buy from our recommended vendor you get a little white bag with a scoop.

You take one or two scoops (no more than that or you’re on your way to overdosing) and then you wait about 2-3 hours for moderate effects and 5-7 hours for extreme effects.

Phenibut takes a long time to really “kick in.” That’s unfortunate but the stuff is so useful that it’s worth just doing a bit of pre-planning beforehand.

It’s best to take it in the morning on an empty stomach. You can even take it a few hours before you get up. That way it will be somewhat active when you get up.

How does it work?

Phenibut is a white, psychoactive powder with very simple ingredients.

It stimulates GABA receptors in the brain, almost like alcohol. The difference is that alcohol plays with a slightly different type of GABA.

Are there any side effects?

I liken phenibut to alcohol because the positive effects are so similar. But in truth there are very little negative effects.

As long as you don’t overdose or abuse phenibut, there will be almost no effects.

The worst thing I’ve experienced is being really tired, but that’s because I overdosed. Other than that you may feel a very, very small amount of physical off-balance, but it’s not distracting.

You can get tired if you take too much. Phenibut is sometimes recommended as a sleeping aid but that is a terrible and reckless idea. Just take the recommended dose and there should be no problems for you.

Can I take it every day?

Usually not. It’s best to take it every other day. This is called “cycling” and it’s used to prevent dependency.

If you take it every day at a high-moderate dose such as 1g, you could become slightly addicted to it and this will cause problems for you in the future.

Officially doctors suggest phenibut be taken 3 times a week. So that’s a guideline for how often you should be safely using it. Just stay within the margin of taking a day off for every day you use it, and you’ll be just fine.

How much does it cost?

About $20 for a 3-month supply.

Where can I get it?

I only recommend Happy Hippo as our vendor. That’s because I trust Chris, the owner, and I know that his phenibut is purer than other brands because sometimes people like to stick fillers in their product. That’s just the way it goes.

Obviously you can check out the vendor or order some phenibut on the sidebar to the right or at this page.

Why do I believe in phenibut?

I first got on phenibut when I tried ordering kratom from my favorite vendor, Happy Hippo. Turns out kratom wasn’t legal in my state, but he sent me phenibut instead for the same price. I was impressed by this move so I went ahead and accepted.

I got the package in two days and I decided to jump right in and try it the very next morning. I took a 1g dose.

I went onto my campus and it was like just gliding through life. Nothing took any effort. I found myself just looking into women’s eyes with ease and they would smile back. For no reason I just introduced myself to a cute girl who smiled and even though she wasn’t interested it didn’t affect me one bit. In fact, I waltzed right into the bloodwork office and asked if I could get a free blood test. The lady smiled and decided that it was ok.

Funny how everything seems to work out on phenibut.

But this was only the beginning of the end of my anxiety. I had been working on it well before this and I had more to go. I ended up going to my nearby big city and talking to as many people as I could, on purpose. I proactively went out of my way to say something to every person. And it wasn’t easy.

There were plenty of women that I let just pass me by and I talked myself out of it. After several rejections I felt like a physical wall was preventing me from approaching. It felt “wrong,” like something I just couldn’t do. The inhibition was so palpable I nearly screamed and after about a half hour of this literal panic attack I broke down crying in the middle of the street for no reason. I just let it all out.

There was no fear here. I didn’t care as much about the people around me. It was a battle with myself. It was a battle with my lifelong conditioning telling me “not to hit on girls.”

Do you know how I got through this?

I took some more phenibut and that night, when it kicked in again, I was still afraid. The phenibut was working to its maximum potential but my mind and body still were at odds. So I got furious.

I was disgusted with my behavior and the fact that I was letting so many beautiful women just pass me by because of some nebulous “wall” in my head telling me I couldn’t. This maddening conflict drove me to push through my barriers and emotions and approach anyway.

That night did not go well.

I literally forced myself to approach and I felt like a rapist. I felt like a bad person. I felt like a total creep and a loser. But I ignored the feelings and I pushed through it anyway. I talked to every goddamn girl until I felt a fire beneath my feet. Before you know it, I eventually took glee in “annoying” these women. I came to embrace what I was doing, good or bad.

And that was the beginning of the end of my anxiety.

This is an incredibly personal story but it reveals the absolute soul-wrenching nature of how anxiety must be met: head on.

Most people just don’t have the guts for this. Most people just aren’t capable. I’m sorry, but that is the truth. And that is why I truly believe in phenibut. Any kind of tool or weapon you can use to crush this horrible affliction (anxiety) must be used wholeheartedly.

Some people turn to God to help them through tough times. Some turn to friends. But some people don’t want that or don’t have that. To me, phenibut is literally your “friend.” It’s something you can rely on when you are out there conquering your anxiety because you can feel it working and this lets you know, “Hey, I know you’re feeling anxious or guilty but it’s all in your head.” I’m dead serious when I say phenibut can be used like a friend. It sounds corny but it allows you to do things you juts otherwise would be too scared to do.

And the best part is that once you go off of phenibut, the anxiety doesn’t return. You’ve accomplished something. You may not be over it yet for good, but what’s done is done. You just have to keep going until it’s gone.

But enough about my story.

In conclusion

I think phenibut is a useful tool for many different people. It’s not a dieting drug and it’s not just an anxiety drug.

It can be useful for many different professions because it takes away stress and fear and it improves your clarity and thinking. I can think of a million different uses for it but anybody who wants to play music, perform, give a speech, pick up a girl, have a great workout, go to parties, have an interview, go to an audition, have a long day at work, or work at home and get a lot accomplished will benefit from this drug.

It’s really a “miracle pill” if there ever was one, although it won’t fix all your problems and it won’t necessarily make you a god.

But sometimes it makes you feel like one.


James Mast

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