The Rebel Within

The Rebel is an idea.

The Rebel is what’s emerging beneath the surface. It’s a being, a character you create to replace the old you, the one mired by layers of conditioning and untruth by the world and its media and technology and its ignorant people.

You slowly rebel against the world until you begin to uncover the REAL YOU beneath it all.

It’s the heart of what I made this site about.


Beneath it all…beneath all beliefs and systems of thinking that you subscribe to.

You read things on the net and they make sense. They seem to be true. But do not actually know and they provide comfort where you have none.

When you follow a system to think for you, then you have rules and righteous purpose. You have concepts and ideals, such as “saving the world” or changing it to your own vision of utopia, or being too honest, when honesty is not always a virtue. You become consumed with ego or “respect.”


These things are all only illusions, designed to distract you from trusting your own intuition and true self.


Beneath all the awkward, casual social interactions. Beneath the light, airy, surface world that everyone pretends is real.

Beneath it is the underworld.

It is a red river, a current of distaste.

You are not satisfied with the status quo. You are uncomfortable with your place in it. You want to push the limits.


But to be an effective rebel, you must have a REASON. It can’t just be for guts and glory.

Those things will never build your soul.

You’ve got to have a selfish reason to push yourself through the barriers of the System. Your goals, the things you really desire, those are enough at first. You take ahold of them and then you FIGHT.


But fighting wears you down after a while, and you run the risk of turning into the enemy.

Deep down, despite all you’ve been told, despite the hard knocks you’ve taken, you are something special.

There’s a power in the background, awaiting your total surrender. It calls to you. It tugs at you like a nightmare every damn day and every time you fail to do what you want to do. What you set out to do.

This thing is NOT the thing that you fight.

This thing is the Rebel.

The Rebel is your emerging soul.


Beneath it all, beneath this human shell, you have a heart of rebellion.

You rebel in order to find your soul, the origin of yourself. And then you hold onto that power and don’t let anybody take it from you. And you don’t let imposters like your old self take it either.

You are a rebel to the core.

The repressed emotions of a dying society

There is something about the wild, uncontrollable fury of chaotic emotions that calls to my spirit. And, I assume, those of other rebellious men.

We are living in a burning generation, all right. But it is not the burning of millenials, it is the burning of the spurned and repressed, the deep-seated anger and repression that results in misery and depression. We have the highest historical rate of mental disorders in our time, and that is because all of our most human and powerful emotions are being suppressed.

Love? What is love?! Love is dead in our culture, being contained to nightclubs and bars for casual pursuits. It’s little wonder no one is happy in relationships.

Let me tell you–when I walk around holding the hands of a woman I love–and I have done this with women I’ve only just met–everyone stares.

We’re talking 9/10 people will smile and look on warmly at the display. I often wonder if the girl notices it, and I’ve brought it up before. “They think we’re cute,” she said. But that’s not really it.

What’s going on is that people can fucking FEEL the force of power that our mutual love ignites. It is a literal FORCE FIELD, that not just affects other people and draws them in, but it affects the two of US as well. It is that kind of love where you don’t want to say goodbye, and you don’t want to leave. You have trouble parting and difficulty getting things done when the object of your love is around because you want nothing more than to just bask in that force field of attraction with them. And it’s not even about sex. Sex can be a culmination of that desire, but just as easily it can be a distraction from the real bond itself.

Another related thing that has been suppressed in our society is PASSION. Passion not as in sexual passion but as in that kind of force of insatiable joy and lust for something or an activity that FIRES YOU UP, as in you literally FEEL the fire or electricity in your body of being hyped up. This an entirely energetic happening, and it could best be described as “getting excited.”

It is possible to get excited about literally anything if you try. This force of open joy and love can ignite your real self, it can focus your energies into their maximal effectiveness in whatever work you are doing, even if it pointless and mundane. Even if you are just waiting tables, you can summon the fires of passion to make it more exciting and attract people in the process.

People NOTICE passion. They notice it like they notice the forcefield of love. When you “work” in this manner people will pay attention, and they will reward you for it. Never believe you are working too hard or being too emotional. The more you invest, the more you get back, from yourself and others. And ignore the haters. Haters will hate you for having passion, and that’s ok. That’s their problem. Never yours.

What about other concealed emotions in our society?


Anger is among the most concealed emotions that people will trash you for displaying it and punish you for having it. It’s ridiculous.

Walking down the street angry, I’ve had people make fun of me or say “He looks angry.”

But, of course, when I’m truly very angry at somebody, then all hell breaks loose. People will tell you to “calm down” because they are afraid, but anger cannot be calmed, only directed. It must be channeled, either purposefully because the problem has been solved or intentionally on the part of the individual. Still, open displays of anger are not bad. Quite the contrary.

I’ve had women literally stop me and hit on me when I was very angry and horny. We’re talking extreme sexual frustration/rage. I thought I was scaring people.

I learned from these encounters that intimidating people is the equivalent of turning on some women.

Anger is a healthy display. Women love healthy men.

To be openly angry requires a defiance of the social hierarchy (unless you are at the top of it). It displays dominance and spiritedness (boldness and courage). It displays selfishness and the presence of an ego, or at least the presence of strong desire or vision. All of which are attractive to women. And subsequently they translate into power over men and women.

The strongest men I’ve seen, the ones that were at the “top” of the social ladder, all had extreme anger. Not just tame anger, or kind anger. We’re talking full-on bloody rage, which sometimes they would later apologize for. (Though it should be noted that apologizing is usually a display of weakness, unless done in the fashion of a strong person with total power who has misused his power. In which case it is a gift. But it should never be used to “suck up” or acknowledge anyone as being superior to you.)


Anger is not a sign of weakness and it is NOT something to hide or repress. Anger can be an attractive display, and though there may be repercussions later, it is not wise to hide these feelings as you are then putting society or another person before yourself because you are afraid of your own emotions.

Grief and sadness

These are less hidden–for women.

I see women crying in public, sometimes in grief sitting down on the street.

But one thing I NEVER, EVER see except with myself is MEN CRYING.

And this is a travesty because this means that men have been improperly emotionally conditioned to hide a crucial and perfectly natural element of their emotional composition. To put this more plainly–crying is perfectly natural and normal, even for men.

It is societal bullshit to think that hiding emotions equates to strength as a man. I suppose in some cases it can be likened to–“Better to keep quiet and be thought a fool than to open your mouth and remove all doubt.”

But in that case hiding the emotion won’t do much good. It is the fixing of the self that is required.

And going even further, emotional suppression is NEVER a healthy or good thing to do. They must be channeled or released. To be in touch with your emotions is to have real power. You are human, after all.

I will tell you something else.

Grief or sadness–even full-on crying–can EXTREMELY attractive to women.

There, I’ve said it. All of the idiots on the web who think men should be cold-hearted and aloof and have “state control” can eat their own shit.

Being AUTHENTIC and REAL is attractive, and that especially includes your emotions.

It’s not ALWAYS attractive, but nothing ever is. It does depend on the motivations or reasoning behind it. But men were not made to “go it alone,” so to speak.

Do babies cry? Do dogs? And women fawn all over these pitiful creatures.

With men it is not different. Displaying your emotions can signal weakness to challengers, but in this society almost nobody is capable of actually dominating or challenging another man with real intention of violence, and secondly when women see a crying man they tend to want to “fix” the problem.

In fact, I would go so far as to say that in this society, where no men cry, crying openly or in front of ANYBODY AT ALL is a hugely attractive trigger because simply nobody else is brave enough to do it.
In closing up this post, let no one believe I said that strong emotions are always attractive, or they always “work.” Because that is missing the point.

You have to actually be FEELING the emotion in question, for it to be effective on any level. In other words–

If you wish to live a fulfilling life and be an effective and attractive individual, you must be AUTHENTIC.

Put simply, authenticity means “to be truthful without fear.”

So when your girlfriend questions your womanizing ways and you cry real tears and explain to her that you love her, and then her eyes widen and she kisses you and starts saying, “Oh my god I’m so sorry” and then you have electric sex, you will have me to thank for clueing you in on the power of being real.

But this is not quite a method. You can’t treat it that way, or else you’ll still be in the same boat.

However, I can tell you that authentically displaying a REAL emotion can and will attract people. It is just so rare and unusual in today’s society of brainwashed losers.

Furthermore, emotional conditioning is unhealthy and represents enslavement on some level–a lack of power.

Women and men are attracted to healthy, fit individuals. This includes, ESPECIALLY, emotional health and fitness.

Not all women are attracted to sociopaths, in fact I think only a small subset of sluts are. Lacking empathy or love is not an attractive trait.

As America and the world continues its descent into anhedonic, technological hell, where we will soon have chips in everyone’s forehead and engineered babies and subhuman slaves, and automated machines and sex robots and body augmentations and always-on internet in our heads, I think we are living in the last generation of truly sane or intelligent people.

This could be our last chance to reverse things or stop the oncoming brutal control of government, and in order to live full and happy lives we must be real.

This is not a call for rebels to unite under one banner. But as an individual, as a rebel or person who wants to truly LIVE, you must embrace your emotions and you MUST be able to openly share them and express them with others, even when that is a real risk. And let me tell you, when you are being authentic those risks usually pay off.

The most important thing in life is to know yourself. To know what you want. To know how you are really feeling, and then to be able to not just embrace but express all of those things without holding back.

You will reject a lot of people but you will also attract a lot of people. And that is far preferable to living a half-assed, “wing it” sort of life where nothing ever gets accomplished because you are a slave to whimsey and the desires of others.

Just remember that next time you think you need to pretend to be happy or cannot express your love or grief to your loved one. Remember that next time a friend or colleague pisses you off. Remember that next time there is something you badly want, but are afraid of pursuing it righteously because you don’t think you are “entitled” or worthy.

There is only YOU, and the authentic self. And THAT is what matters. Desire alone is deserving enough [link to car and pedestrian passing one another].

Desire strongly. Fall in love. Cry, get angry, be miserable.

See what happens.