The Rebel Within

The Rebel is an idea.

The Rebel is what’s emerging beneath the surface. It’s a being, a character you create to replace the old you, the one mired by layers of conditioning and untruth by the world and its media and technology and its ignorant people.

You slowly rebel against the world until you begin to uncover the REAL YOU beneath it all.

It’s the heart of what I made this site about.


Beneath it all…beneath all beliefs and systems of thinking that you subscribe to.

You read things on the net and they make sense. They seem to be true. But do not actually know and they provide comfort where you have none.

When you follow a system to think for you, then you have rules and righteous purpose. You have concepts and ideals, such as “saving the world” or changing it to your own vision of utopia, or being too honest, when honesty is not always a virtue. You become consumed with ego or “respect.”


These things are all only illusions, designed to distract you from trusting your own intuition and true self.


Beneath all the awkward, casual social interactions. Beneath the light, airy, surface world that everyone pretends is real.

Beneath it is the underworld.

It is a red river, a current of distaste.

You are not satisfied with the status quo. You are uncomfortable with your place in it. You want to push the limits.


But to be an effective rebel, you must have a REASON. It can’t just be for guts and glory.

Those things will never build your soul.

You’ve got to have a selfish reason to push yourself through the barriers of the System. Your goals, the things you really desire, those are enough at first. You take ahold of them and then you FIGHT.


But fighting wears you down after a while, and you run the risk of turning into the enemy.

Deep down, despite all you’ve been told, despite the hard knocks you’ve taken, you are something special.

There’s a power in the background, awaiting your total surrender. It calls to you. It tugs at you like a nightmare every damn day and every time you fail to do what you want to do. What you set out to do.

This thing is NOT the thing that you fight.

This thing is the Rebel.

The Rebel is your emerging soul.


Beneath it all, beneath this human shell, you have a heart of rebellion.

You rebel in order to find your soul, the origin of yourself. And then you hold onto that power and don’t let anybody take it from you. And you don’t let imposters like your old self take it either.

You are a rebel to the core.

What we can learn from Satan

satan is a myth

I frequently hear “God told me to do XXX.

Well, Satan told me to have pride and rebel against authority and make yourself your own god.

I’d pick Satan any day. And I’ll get to why in a moment.

The myths of the Bible

Now Satan is a largely misunderstood myth. His name was never “Lucifer.” Lucifer is a misnomer that actually described Nebuchadnezzar, notorious king of Babylon. Satan was never a being of Light in the Bible.

From the Bible, “satan” was actually an office or title held. A “Satan” would be deployed by God as an agent of disaster, an “accuser,” such as in the book of Job.

That said the Bible is a hugely mistranslated book. It is a compilation of stories, letters and poems later referenced by the alleged Jesus Christ, with notable internal fulfilled prophesies, much later put together by the ancient church.

Just common sense thinking can determine the obvious problems in this. Namely, the original Old Testament is not the same as the Torah, and many notable historical documents are not included and chalked up as “apocrypha” including highly controversial books like the Book of Enoch, which doesn’t exist in the modern Bible but is actually referenced by Jesus!

Much of it can be taken as metaphor and applied to your life, but the idea that the “Bible” is a book “breathed” by God is ridiculous. It’s ridiculous because only a fool can surmise a book rife with obvious metaphor and parallels and parables–since even Jesus spoke in fictional parables–and only a fool can attest that the book is all-literal truth.

What other book out there can attest to be full-literary and inerrant truth?

Even worse is that the same Christians who claim the “innerancy” of God’s Word can’t even agree on what is “canonical” in “Scripture” and what is not, and they even ignore historical inconsistencies present in their own version of the Bible.

With all that said, the modern Bible is English translation, further paving the road for horrible mistranslations.

I once stepped into the library and read the first page of 10 different copies of Dante’s Inferno. Written in Italian, the book is then forced to be written into English as the author sees fit, with its own form of poetic language, descriptors, and rhyming schemes.

Reading through these copies, I felt like I was presented 10 different poems. Each one was staggeringly different, with varying meaning, and it was hard to select which one to read as the “definitive” text.

Needless to say, translating a work creates a torrent of altered meaning. It is not the original work.

The Bible was written in Hebrew, Aramaic, and Greek. Anyone who has studied Latin knows full-well the difficulty of the language. Greek is purported to be easier than Latin, but often requires Latin knowledge to get started with. The translations we use today alter the meaning entirely.

Not only are we getting hearsay writings from ancient writers in the Greek language that have been tampered with in unimaginable and unknowable ways by the Catholic church, but then these writings are further corrupted and changed by multiple translations into English.

Simply put, the Bible we have today is not at all the Bible that was originally written, which itself likely is further altered from what the authors wrote. And as I said, can you always trust an author?

Lastly, highly significant Biblical perspectives completely alter the entire religion. While many Christians are notable for believing in the End Times and eventual Return of Christ, myself noticing world events leading to a World War III with Muslims which is ostensibly predicted by the Bible, the truth is that without a bias the natural and logical interpretation of purportedly “apocalyptic” books like the famous Revelations turn out to be indicative of very local events far in the past (preterism).

Many lifelong, hard-studying Christians still don’t accept the fact that there is no singular Antichrist, as “anti-christ” was a counter-movement against Christianity back in the final days of the Roman Empire, that the “Beast” mentioned in the Bible during the end times is not the Antichrist, that the “Tribulation” refers not to the end of the world but to the impending active persecution of Christians across the Roman Empire, and that Emperor Nero was in fact the “Beast” in Revelations heralding the infamous number “666.”

I bet you never knew that.

The obvious and totally undeniable truth is that the “Bible” as we have it today is a foreign history textbook, cherry-picked and translated with an agenda. That is all fact.

Keeping all of this fallibility in mind for the “Bible,” is it any surprise that “Satan” as an actual entity simply does not exist?

The myths of Satan

Satan was an office for angels, appointed by God, and the story of his “fall” is a fabrication pulled together from multiple unrelated references across the book. Which is to say there is no basis for a primary evil in the Bible, less one known as Satan.

Like most of the Bible, Satan is a myth perpetuated and altered over time.

The idea of a fiery red horned demon is not and never was in the Bible. It was entirely made up in the Renaissance.
The concept of “Satan” is a testament to the power of myth and memes.

We have powerful concepts people still believe in like demons, the End Times, the Antichrist, Slenderman, 9/11 as a terrorist attack, and HIV that have spread through the culture and become immortalized.

Now when we consider Satan, we see him as a deceptive being of great intelligence and power that works through the world, tempting people and managing demons and ostensibly a demon of great light, handsome and beautiful as an angel but ultimately driving the world toward sin and away from God.

A “deal with the Devil” is where one takes a great risk for power but loses his soul, and perhaps his future.

What we can learn from the historical thoughtform, or legend of Satan is what people harbor as truth in human nature.

People invent obstinate myths based on deep-embedded fears or truths within themselves.

Satan is actually a reflection of yourself.

He is the lying, cheating, tempting selfish bastard.

He is also a true Rebel.

He had the ultimate act of overconfidence and self-belief.

Think about it.

Satan defied God, who had omnipotence–that’s ALL-powerful–who sees and hears all, who even CREATED Satan himself. Satan still has the pride and conviction to declare HIMSELF not just as an equal to God, but as a future successor.

Unlike all of the Christians who want to “be like God” and “FEAR God” and “be humbled by God” and “FOLLOW God”–Satan throws all of this out.

With unmitigated audacity and shameless irony the Devil takes the place of God his Creator, and becomes his own God, going so far as to tempt God’s own son in the flesh.

What we can learn from this attitude is the power in thinking BIG, defying authority and making OURSELVES our own authority, and of course rebelling against our creators.

Many of us have yet to rebel against our creators. Made in the image of our parents, TV, and government-funded education and cultural memetics, we have yet to rebel against the ideas that bred us into conditioned slaves. And the rebellion will not be easy.

But we’re going to do it. And thus we become like Satan, inheriting the world and achieving great power.

There is a reason people secretly love, but fear Satan.

It is his power, and, yes, his audacity. It is the fear of what will be unleashed when we stop holding back.

There is a devil in all of us, just waiting to break out. And that is why we all speak of devils whispering in our ears and devils tempting us.

There is a Devil inside you. He wants to break out, but he is being covered by the submissive slave.

You must destroy the facade and become the rebel within if you wish to succeed.


Stop holding on to your religions

There is more to religion than just a god.

Any belief system, any comfort system, anything that feels safe and that you can adhere to can be a religion. It is a tantalizing prospect to find answers in “science” and “truth,” but you have only to withdraw and witness the religious zealotry of any system’s members to determine that it is all the same.

There is a reason chaos and controversy pollute this planet, and it is in the name of belief and absolute paradigms. Take comfort in the infinite, and the chaos goes away. There is no need for absolute truth when you know that you can achieve anything, and the analysis gives way to intent in retrospect.

It is the most difficult lesson of all to accept that no one but you has the best answers and nothing can be trusted. All peers and teachers will ultimately follow you astray unless you recognize that it is the lesson, not the teacher that is the thing. It is the task, not the routine that matters. It is the practicality, not the rule. The sense, not the paradigm.

Beliefs are easy to see because they require reinforcement. They can be used as a tool but often are used as a scapegoat to further misery. It is a contrast to the needs of the heart that are known silently, the tug of happiness when you do what you want to do as opposed to the anxiety of the system.

All beliefs can ultimately be proven or disproven, but you are wasting your time when you could be reveling in the results of the task rather than basking in the glory of your religion.

That little voice, that little nudge that tells you to prove it? To validate yourself? To go somewhere? To make sure what you’re doing is the “right way?” It is the voice of madness. Kill it.

Then you will be lost. Lost in the sea of meaninglessness and directionless void, empty and detached, an eternal time loop that includes all decades and eras and even possibilities, those beyond this human realm. It will be up to you to choose what to do next, and without a guardian or teacher, without a guide, without something to cling to or hope for because you understand now that it is all random chaos, impersonal, and with that comes the good and the bad, the positive and the negative, and it is freedom but it includes a price.

This is something that you can do now.

Right now.

When you take this lone journey out for a spin, remember that I am the best of your best, and only there when you are, and if you choose not to listen to me you are not listening to yourself. We are intwined, you and I, and if you make me a god that you follow you will only ever be a follower, but if you create yourself as the best possible self, then the madness unfolds before you and you are free to choose.

Free to choose.

Can you deal with that prospect? Do you have the strength? Or will you continue to make unimpeccable choices, hoping I will save you, hoping that in the background I am running and doing what I can to lead you?

That is a fool’s hope, and while fools have luck, I would rather drive on blindly as a madman than hold myself back as the role of the fool, hacking through the forest of obstacles, pursuing that one goal, with all of my effort.

And if I can do it, then so can you, but you must remember to give the best of yourself, for that is the only way you will actually become the One who gives the best of himself. Do you see that yet? Never tomorrow, never “eventually.” It is now or never, for ten years from now if you have been waiting, then you will continue to wait, and it is only when you make the impossible choice to fuck up now that you can win later.

Hard lessons. Hard choices. Don’t let that become a distraction.

In the end there is what you want and what you Do to get it, and I weep for the lost souls of this world who always think and never act.

Now is the time.

Paradigms of Universal Truth

All cultures in the world share the same basic religious beliefs.

They all believe in a god. They all believe in past lives. They all believe in afterlife.

Christianity isn’t special. I take preference to it only because I grew up in America. I recognize that, just as I recognize that there are thousands of cultures in the world with their own holy books and histories and gods.

If I grew up somewhere else, that’s what would influence me.

The Bible says “God can be found just by looking at creation” and it’s true.

All the cultures in the world have different paradigms of the same universal truth.


I’ve always known there was more to life and I’ve seen direct parallel between basic Biblical tenets and what I’ve experienced.

But there is one fundamental difference between Christianity and the path of the Rebel:

In Christianity, God creates Man in his own image.

But the Rebel creates God in his own image.

There’s a second difference.

It has to do with who has the power.

For Christians:

Intuition = Holy Spirit
Rebel = God
Afterlife = Heaven and Hell

All of these beliefs have something in common:

They all rely on an outside force to do the work.

Jesus says to “become like him.” He chastized all of the rules and religion that harkened back to ancient Judaic principles. He spoke of the “relationship between one’s self and God.”

As I struggle with reconciling Christianity with my experience, I have to ask myself one vital question:

Is my god the same god for everybody?

If you are X-tian you believe there is one God who reveals himself to all in
different ways. In that case there might as well be many gods. It’s no wonder
other cultures have pantheons.

I think Christianity is weakness.

Here is my definition of weakness:

You wait on someone else to do it for you.

I don’t mean you don’t dominate or influence others with your will. Sometimes that IS necessary.

But you should never be “waiting around for divine intervention.” You should never be waiting on God to intervene on your behalf. Prayer is inneffective until you take action in the desired direction.

Christians seem to have the right idea, but they stop just short of taking actual responsibility for their lives.

Don’t stop at prayer.

God won’t do anything for you. He won’t hold your hand.

Pray and then trust your instincts, draw in energy, and do what is required.

You’ll figure it out along the way.